Another story.

Believe it or not.. im not worried.

The past can give us who we are in the future....

Sometimes how we percieve the past is NOT how it happened...

But the perception is real enough that it impacts the future. Impacts who we think we are.. gives us how defense mechanisms, ect

I was 13

I was highly religious.

I got possessed.

Noone believed me but my friends who were there.

The church told me I was evil

I left the church...

I felt i could never go back. cause what they said wasnt true.

When i was 23 i did the same thing with landmark.... I left cause i felt something they said about me wasnt true.

Ive done the same thing with relationships... THIS is why i left home.. this is what causes me to walk out of things...

It was why i stopped talking to Tom for all those months...

Car BACK.. YEAH!!!!

So I got my car back....

And ive driven...

and I got to see a little more of Nat than i have in yrs:) AND i get to go bowling with her on thurs.. WOOP.!!! THANKYOU NAT FOR LEtting me stay with you!!!!

LIVING END on FRI>> YEAH YEAH>>> with Gary and Jen:):):):)

Other than that... well life is what it is....

ANd happens not to be what it isnt.......

Dice Games

TOPIC OF THE WEEK?

Tell me about your sex games? Dice? Dart boards? Cards? I want to know it all.. so whos sharing????? maybe not online.. some of you are a little more prudish than myself?> but im lacking in information and experiences so im up for a few stories from my usual sources....

LOST

I happen to have lost a close friend of mine... and i know he reads this... so TOM>> i miss ya.. cant wait till your home... and hi... sorry i havent answered your calls...

Without a Car

This is fun... well it can either be fun or annoying so i choose fun...

It takes 10mins to walk to Nats from work... longer if you stop to have sex:P

I shall be without a car for about 10 days they reckon... that is a long time...

WOrked yesterday then went to Mum and Dad's and got treated to Lasagna.... Sarah doesnt realize how good she has it. THen came back up this way and spent it with Matt... Would it be too early in our relationship for me to say i think im smitten? Im pretty sure i am. Im pretty sure even if i didnt say it it would be true. Went back to Nats... watched friends... slept ok.. not good.. but ok.. what more can i expect? i dont sleep away from home much....

Sun i did my pamphlets... spewed a lot from sat night... how embarrassing? and had breakfast at the markets... Matt slept most the day. I also had the delight of going to Pams new house... it is beautiful... stunning... and it was awesome spending some time with just Pam... Im sure Pam is just as deep as me... and i think she is my only sibling that thinks as deep regularly.

Pete and Sarah R are in Darwin... It was Sarah R's birthday on Sat night.. freaked me a little cause Matt spent most the night with Zac and Andrew... I told Zac what i thought. His girlfriend is gorgeous... she has the cutest smile a giggle. I really liked her.. and i think being as drunk as i was i mighta told her 1000 x.

Anyways scaddadling....

More Uninteresting Facts...

I liked this questionairre sent from Tenika so i am gonna post it....

What Time is it now?: 10:30 am... transition at Maccas

What is your name?: Angela Kirsty Haggas

Single or taken?: taken:)

What does your name mean?: messenger from God although there are other versions

Who picked out your name?: Im not sure.... I think Mum did... Mum had a friend named Angela when she was young.. Dad had a girlfriend named Angela i have never been able to get any information about her out of Dad he just always says dont tell Mum... and mum says 'Your Dad had a girlfriend named Angela" weird. I was gonna be called Kirsty but Aunty Coral and Aunty Jan and Nana said that was a cows name....lol or was it Grandma... bleh....

What colour are your eyes?: blue... sometimes grey

What size are your shoes?: seven and a half

What do you like about yourself? Body wise or personality.... ? BOdy wise i like my eyes... personality I like that Im easy to talk too

What do you always get complimented on?: most frequently my boobs... hahaha arent they awesome...! lol... and personality wise that im easy to talk too

What is your worst quality?: that i stress out and get overwhelmed

Do you think you're cute?: hmmm no.

Hair colour?: brown

Do you wear contacts?: no

Living Arrangements?: I live in a duplex on a hill... that i am buying... i have two cats... Toby who is the love of my life and Pussa... who was TIms cat... two dogs... Saffron and Jackie Brown and Jo is boarding with me at the moment.. Jo is THE most delightful person ive ever lived with... and it is a pleasure to share my house with her.

Favourite Drink? prolly water and lime ice cold

Favourite Alcoholic Drink? Vodka and Mountain Dew

Favourite Month? September

Hey now is where Im gonna skip to the interesting questions... lol

Do you have more girl or boy friends?: boy friends

Are your parents together?: yes my parents are happily married... in love... all that jazz

Do you tell your parents or your friends more? depends on who i see the most... prolly my parents... at the moment i probably tell Matt the most

Anything special about your parents? I THINK i have THE most awesome family onthe planet... i am sooo blessed....

Siblings and their ages?: Peter 22, Pam 19 and Sarah 18

You 're a flirt? yes

You're slutty? I dont think so.. i can be a tease tho... and i LOVE sex.

You're Mean? Yes i can be... id say im vindicitive not mean

You like someone? ha ha i like a lot of pple... but there is certainly someone special i really like... lol.. but youve all read about him...

You dance in front of the mirror? No i havent.. maybe i should....

You can keep secrets? I can.. and i do.. some Ill take to my grave....

You sing in the shower? I sing all the time...

Anyways im outa time.. i hope that told some of you some new stuff about me... lol..

5 mins to set up....

A little overwhelmed with alli have to do.. and i cant wait to actually sit down and tell you all a story... but just an update.....

Saw Zac last night... and im still angry... didnt even realize i was angry but i am... would LOVE to make him pay but being vindictive right now isnt gonna acheive anything.. and i got a guy who is 1000x better..

Seeing Nat tonight and hopefully shell meet Matt... altho im not sure how i feel about that or about seeing Matt cause i have stat tomorrow morning and being in bed with Matt makes me wanna stay there not go to work....

Spoke to Andrew last night.... and i love speaking to him anytime... he is awesome.. so i guess i may be angry at Zac but i definately made a friend with someone who is amazing.... '

On the work front... My boss Andrew comes back tomorrow.. eeekk....

Dilema

I want everyone to know I think that Matt is unbelievable...im sure you all know that.. but i think it more and more and more as i get to know him better... i dont think ive met someone i like more and more... but i do..
What is weird about it is i want EVERYONE on the damn planet to like him too... cause obviously i like him that much.. and i want everyone to know him... BUT.... i cant help but be a little scared that maybe if they knew him then everyone would wanna spend as much time with him as i do and then i wouldnt see him... it is such a juxta positioning of feelings.. and it is really quitte funny... watching me react to this person is funny...
I got the weekend off.... and i get to see Sal.. i miss her...:)

A Thought

Talking to Matt, i was present to the story i wrote when i was younger about the guy driving to the girl to tell her he still loved her... anyone remember??? And i was present once again to the importance of time... and how we spend it... and how much of it we waste... and how sometimes we take the advantage of the most important things... or we dont honor it...

I really do think time is the greatest gift we can give pple... and i thankyou all for giving me the time to read my thoughts and for you all who are my friends.. :P

On fri night i went out with Mat, Jo, Tom and Bhodi... and i was really present to a couple of things... Im so proud to call these pple my friends... I was so tired on fri night but all i could think of was what i loved about each of them... How lucky i was to be out with such a crazy and intelligent bunch of pple... and i guess also who i am that i have such a loyal and beautiful bunch of pple as friends... a bunch that gets on so well with each other.... I had a really good time and i learnt stuff about each of them i suspected but didnt know... it was amazing....

And as for my week well it has slowed down... im glad... very glad... and im running maccas... and loving it... sometimes i think maybe i would LOVE my own store... oh well.. im sure it will change next time im in trouble....

A Story

When i was eight i sat next to this boy i thought the world of.. His name was Brendon and i was IN LOVE with him... so he sat to my right and Natalie was to my left... Nat was/ is my longest and at the time closest friend... and she is and was beautiful for all you who haven't met her...
One day Brendon swapped Nats and my tray... so HE could sit next to Nat. I was devestated... I actually couldnt talk to him again after that and our three year friendship was over...

DRUNK

Im drunk.... and trying really hard to stay alive... Poacher is here at family dinner and it is fun.// altho im drunk and barely able to figure out what is going on.///

Im ok.. a little upset with landmark.. but happy all in all.. .

Ive Slept...

WHAT A GIFT... i slept for the first time since last thurs for over six hrs last night.. and im feeling better... im feeling alive. THis will be the secound over six hr sleep ive had since last mon... so this weekend i aint going hard...

Tonight ive got stat training and then out with Matt.. i want to talk about my boyfriend for a bit on here cause i havent really written much about him.. First of all i have a boyfriend and his name is Matt... aka Poacher...
We have been together for about three weeks now... he is really cheeky... a lot of fun... and personally i think he is HOT>.. altho Bhodi doesn't agree.. what i like the most about him is he is all those things... and quite deep... and awesome in bed....
And i trust him... which is wow in itself... i dont find myself worrying what he thinks or what he is doing... HE always makes me smile... even when im intent on being angry or grumpy or whatever that is... so for all you who i havent told and it may come as a shock.. i have a boyfriend.

As for the last couple of days it has been Zac and Chris's birthday... so happy birthday!!

So I have the weekend off.. my plans are... tonight out with Dan, Matt, Jo and others....
Sat paper round and fixing my fence... party that night with Matt
Sun.. finish paper round/ fence.... family dinner... lol... I CANT WAIT>> YEAH>>>>.