OHH DEAR

SO... lucky me.. ive been in agonizing pain for about four days. Now i dont know about your relationship with your intestines. I was not aware that i even had a relationship with my intestines until they started to swell.. and wouldnt go down. and i could barely move. Who was i to think that they had so much they wanted to say and i hadnt been listening. Im proud of me tho cause... i followed my gut... hahaha and got a secound opinion when my first doctor told me it was muscle pain. Cause without my doctor... who is i maintain the best doctor ever... i would still be in bed unable to move. Not that im a lot better but moving is a blessing i believe i needed... and i sure as hell didnt want to go to hospital.

And hopefully Telstra will come fix my line today and i will have the net at home. Im very excited about this. I might even write my thoughts more frequently....

I have watched a few movies during my sick four days... so i am gonna talk about them like tom does....

First of all i watched FLICKA....
Now i loved the book My friend Flicka. One of my faviourite horse books ever. And i loved the movie with the same intensity. The girl in the movie Katie was just as wild as the girl in the book and Flicka was beautiful. Now i know most of the pple reading this blog aint gonna go watch a horse movie but i cried most the way thru and i thought it was beautiful and it got me thinking about my relationship with my Dad. You know it always seems to me Dad is on my side. Im not sure im Like my Dad.. But id like to be. It also got me thinking about my Mum... She has really looked out for me the last couple of days and ive needed a friend. My Mum like the mum in the movie is like that. She is my friend, my confidante and she is my mum. She can see me when im not right and i dont mind cause i know she'll love me anyways. And im sure i did make my Dad proud with my decisions in my life. I loved the movie. It was about family pulling together and i do hope one day i can have a family like mine. I hope im as good a parent as my parents were.
And ..... I SOOO want a horse.. damn it.....

SO i also watched a movie called Idiocricy... im not sure that is the spelling but it was an awesome idea. I think that maybe we are breeding dumb pple. I really thought the movie hit the nail on the head with how the future is going... And with how society is going. And where we are heading our youth. I had a conversation with a friend of mine last week and he was giving me five million reasons not to have kids... and I was convinced after talking to him. Really convinced. He had solid reasons. But im not stupid and i do make a difference. FAir call my tool in landmark and some of you debate that..but i do make a solid difference to society. I really got from the movie that smarts is not the way to make that decision. If you want something stand for it. Now dont know whether i really want kids. I want family. And Matt and i have only skirted around the subject and i certainly dont want them soon. But im not convinced otherwise now.

The next movie i saw was The Illusionist. I loved the movie. It was a love movie. I got nothing else to say other than that. I loved it. And it was very clever.

A movie i suggest you all watch is A Skanner Darkly. I recommend it.

I also saw a few other movies. And i enjoyed a few but i cant remember past the above.