The Old Stuff was Better...

It is the cool thing to say....
I like Butterfingers but your not a fan unless you prefer the old stuff.... haha.. or Pearl Jam.. and what about Red Hot Chillis... lol
I like music... and at the moment.. i love Hilltop.. and i sooo wanna go to End of Fashion next week but .... it is my birthday...

so you'll all like me again.. hahahahaha I think Blinks old stuff was beta.. or wait.. what about the middle stufff... yeah but that is all old now anyways...

Im not good at relationships... i want you all to know.. be clear... and that my friends is the truth...

So the other day while hanging with Jon,. i went into a video store.. and realized there are a shit load of movies about... revolved around falling in love... more than ive ever cared to notice... and i was fascinated.. and wondered who it sold too.. i thought it is a bit like sayin you like someones old music beta than the new music... well obviously the new music sells.. that is what pple are buying.. or it woulda been big with the old music.. is that just the cool thing to say? ... the same with love movies... we all say we dont wanna watch them... yet ... they were clearly advertised and put forward... and i thought is this another thing we like to believe in but deny to our friends we do... maybe we all secretly wanna fall in love... or are we brought up to believe that...

Im beginning to think love is a fairy tale... :S

anyways that is my thought of tonight.... off to watch BIG BROTHEr.. hahaha

The Morning of...

Not much to report really...
Yesterday i managed to poison myself..
Saturday is something to tell about i guess.. we had mothers day dinner at Nana's,... which was lovely... and then i left for NAts Party which i took Jen too... now we all know Ang dont like the Ruby Room... and man it has changed since i was there last... so i didnt stay long.. im serious in saying they were playing VIDEO CLIPS>... and pple were dancing...WTF?????? I could do that at home:S I really think im a live band or Rise girl.. so after that we went to RIse.. and i danced like a looney ...:) and then i went to Chris' house.. lol.. and Lukian was there... haha... He made it really clear he dont want anything to do with me.. his exact words were... I dont like it when pple talk about me behind me back... *smile* well i dont like that either.. that is a fair call...i guess... hahahahaha.. anyways.. he is looking well...:) Other than that Jen had to go home early so I drove her home.. no wait... i got to chat with Isobel for hours...:) and i really think she is cool.. and Chris called me his girlfriend.. so i suppose i should stop giving him a hard time about not going out with me:) and sorry boys that means I cant do any more dating.. so im pretty happy about that:)
So the weekend was good considering...
and today is the day of the funeral...

Fighting the Spiral Down

So it is Sat.. and what a damn week.. for al those who have seen me... well im sorry for the emotional outbursts.. and to Chris who doesnt read this.. I AM SOOO DAMN SORRY>. It will never be that bad again I promise.... and ive had to fight myself out of bed... i think too many drugs and alcohol has got too my head.. and the shock...

but life goes on i guess... and well im up for a nice weekend... Nats birthday tonight... and then out.. and tomorrow the day off.... Ill be right.. as long as i dont drink too much or take anything else...

All that is left unsaid...

On Mon my Aunty Anne passed away.,..

I want you all to know it is ok if you dont read this one cause im sure im only venting my upset and encapturing how i feel.. but for those of you who do read it ... reading this will mean a lot to me...

First of all i want to say i didnt see her for the last yr or so.. and it made me realize how quickly time runs away with you...

My love of Ospreys stems from my Aunty Anne.... when i was a kid.. and/or teen I used to go bird watching every holidays at Aunty Annes beach house in Mandurah before it got big.. and there was a pair of ospreys who mated and had a nest and we watched them all the time... i never appreciated birds till then...
I remember watching lots of tennis... so for all you who knew how much i worshipped Andrey Agassi... ( not that i can spell his name ) this also stems from beach house days...:)
I finished Mario Karts whilst spending time down there...
Realized i was a girl ( for all you girls out there who know what i mean )

Im not sure what else to write.. i used to bowl with Aunty Anne... and Aunty Helen on monday nights... where i used to write and write in my diary...

What i want to say is that
Aunty Anne was the most honest person i ever met... you always knew exactly where you stood with her.. and exactly where the line was... and she always loved you exactly the way you were...
She gave most genoursly all the time.. and thought of us ... and painted us stuff and made us stuff and let us come stay at the beach house... She loved us like we were family even tho we arent. And she loved life... for me when i was young she was the only person i knew who did... and that meant a lot...

I will miss her.. yet i know .. that who she is.. will always be a part of who I am... and my life was blessed to have co-incided with hers...
I love you Hepsy....

The last seven days

Well it has been a week since i wrote.. naughty naughty.. and ive had one huge week:)

Im not even sure where to start,.,, had a long weekend.. fri sat and sun off.. so fri i went out with Dan.. and met his friend Jaye.. she was awesome and we had a fun day all hanging out.. and Pam( My sis) came along to freo markets with us , and although i cant say anythign extra ordinary happened it was a really nice day...

Fri night Dan took me to the Fremantle Prison for a night tour.. he was a bit dissapointed id done one... before.. lol.. but i really enjoyed it and it was a lot of fun... you should all be reminded from this that i never tell everything... it might just seem that way./..:)

From there i went to Chris's... and i gotta tell you i had the most awesome time with him i think ive had.. so that was cool... and so ends fri.. about 630am sat morning,...

Sat... i was written off most of the day.. and id lost my keys so i couldnt drive anywhere with a KILLER hang over which wore off about 1700.. so i rang around to see what pple were up too.... and off i went to Garys after finding my keys.... hahaha in the washing basket....

And from there we went to the Saints... in Innaloo.. and a girls party... now all i want to say about that is YOU dont bitch about my best friends to me.. NOT EVER... and i personally dont want to even know that girl... and from there Sal, Bec, Deanna and i went to northbridge... which as always with them for company rocked... and we had fun...

From there i rocked up at Chris's party.. only like 5 hrs late.. but i was having fun with the girls.. and met his friends.. and i got to say im impressed.. he has amazing friends.. which i didnt expect... and i met someone who is amazing...
He walks up to me and says.. so how do you know Briggsy... and i said i met him at leftbank and then he says.. so you single... hahahah and i said well i dont know.. i think i am technically.. its complicated...
what i gotta tell you about this guy is knows stuff other pple dont.. and he will be someone i remember and i know he will remember me.. and i ask you all to get me to tell the story cause i dont really have time to write it up here... ohh and i finally got to meet Isobel, and she is lovely.. and i understand why she is One of Chris' best friends..... and i like her.. and his friends seemed to like me... so i hang out with them till 530ish am.. and went to sleep..

I woke up at 1145... drove home.. folded pamphlets and then went to sexpo... with three guys mind you...:S... i really enjoyed sexpo.. .it was fun... and embarrassing.. and wow... :)

From there i came home and walked my paper round.. and slept ready for stat... OH what a weekend...:)

Positive STAT

So I got a positive stat.. which means i should be promoted... well see hah??

ANyways... i just took Chris to Zig Zags.. and i slept all day.. and i feel slightly better and im keeping food down.. so all is looking positive....

Last night was LAndmark.. was awesome.. which is good.. and i realized just how much i miss working with pple on possibilities.. ahhh...

Im not gonna continue writing comments tonight cause im sooo tired.. looking forward to going away with Dan this weekend...

ANd on it goes.... :)