I have had a real hard time the last couple of weeks,,, Damn mat did the forum.. do you think he g ot anything out of it??? well i dont know.. but i hAVE NEVER Been told ive been hated so many times in one weekend.
AND im supposed to understand????
MAn and he is SMOKING out there with them now.. .what a damn loser...
Im so sick of trying to be a clearing.. trying to be there for others... WHEN is someone gonna be there for me.. damn gary is off and not forgiving me for wanting him to have a good life.. Oh im sorry i want you to have what you want more than you and matt just dont give a shit. Its all about him.. well ok.. have it be all about you ... man poor you .. poor poor pple
i Havent seen tom in ages,... got to spend some time with him lately.. i think i need bhodi as well.. i love my boy friends more than i can ever tell you .............
I feel caged,.. by maccas by matt.. by what is expected and landmark...there are only so many hrs in a day.. i cant do everything. what about having fun/??? when do i get to have fun again.. soi im glad im here at toms... maybe ill just keep drinking till i forget.. mature i know but what else am i supposed to do right now... really.. im safe here... and it will be fun no matter how bad it gets... im looked after... TAhlia is awesome like i remember and my sis and gaf gaf is here...
Im so damn disallusioned.. i dont even know what i want anymore... it really sucks.. i wish i knew even who i was at the moment.. and i dont.. I DONT even know what shift i have tomorrow.. that sucks.....
ANyways .. i wish all you who read this well... im ok.. dont worry:S ill make it thru and ill prolly be fine by tues.. why tuess... well why not/?????
Ang
