Hillaries

Last night i went to Hillaries with Matt and Tom.

And the boys were talking boy stuff which bores the shit outa me.... and tom said oh wouldnt it be cool if mermaids popped up out of the water... and granted one wish...

And it struck me newly how having a wish granted could be a dangerous thing.

How the bad that comes with any wish would be just another thing added to the world....

I wanted a horse and when he died it took me years to recover..
I wanted a bf who loves me so much and when i have one i dont get as much time with the pple i love i have to think about what he wants or i get not time with him.....

To every positive there seems to be a negative with an impact.. and i guess all there is is to deal with the impact.

and matt said i would want all the girls to be naked... and tom pointed out there would be plenty who would probably freeze to death... lol

I hate the way boys think.. maybe i hate the way Matt thinks.. i hated dealing with two boys perving on australia day.. it was dominating and oppressive and im not sure whether it is my insecurities that make me that way OR it is just plain rude... .. i hate the boys talk about girls like they are things... and i hate the way girls pander to it. I dont care about the magazines.. the pornos ... the fucking pictures.. I JUST DONT WANT TO SEE IT>... i dont want to know about it. I DONT WANT TO LISTEN TO BOYS TALK ABOUT IT LIKE IT MAKES THEM MACHO> because i find it degrading.

When i go out i dress to look good. I dress so that i look like im out to have fun.. or whatever.. i dont dress so some guy can go have a wank over me. That is what strippers or skimpys are for. Not me... and you know what im sure most the girls out there are the same. i wouldnt want some guy following me cause i was hot. I would want him to talk to me get to know me.. care about what i thought.. think ... am up to...
I love Matt.. there isnt any problems there.. i just needed to vent how i feel on this subject,,,

Jon

It is Australia Day...

My faviourite public holiday of the year..

YEAH IM AUSTRALIAN AND DAMNNNN PROUD OF IT>>>

and im at Jons with Matt. and they seem to be getting along great.. which is good i finally have a MAN that Jon approves off...

I am present to that i am very lucky to have a best friend like Jon,..
and ive realized something lately....
You can only count your best friends by the people who stand by you when things arent great. By the people who will come miles to see you cause its you.. The people who you will go months without seeing you but understand your commitment and stand for it cause you do.
They are people who accept the people you love into their life whether or not they like them cause you love them...
They are the people who can rock up the a family bbq and would be welcomed cause not once have they ever screwed you over... they may have been hurt. They may have said dumb things... but only ever... only ever out of their love for you
And its the years that count them you know.. the ones that after 10 years im still thier friend...
Im blessed to have five friends like that. Friends i know dont bitch about me behind my back.. they talk yes.. they get worried.. i know.. but they love me and would move heaven and earth for me regardless...
Jon, Carly, Liz, Bhodi and Nat... I'm so lucky you all fit this description... LOVE YOU