Hurt

So Chris and I broke up... and im hurt... im angry... and im hurt and I killed any chance of us being friends....
and i feel crazy....
i want to say a few things online

i know alot of you didnt like him... but i did... i still do in fact... and i didnt want it to be this way...
i know he did a lot of things that were unacceptable... i know he had no relationship with his word... and therefore him and i were never gonna work.. I know that.. and he was right in doing what he did but i cared enough that that didnt matter.
And if you all want to know what brought on this convo... well.. his parents found out we were having sex... hahahaha and the whole him asking to have a threesome with Isobel and myself going loopy about it... i guess it is best for me to say any boy who wants to have a threesome with his best friend and girlfriend there is something wrong... well at least isnt cut out to be in a relationship with...
I want to hate him.. it would be easier in fact... but i guess what i need to be responsible for was that he was right.. we were not gonna work... i knew that and ignored it.. cause sometimes the moment is more important than forever...
maybe that aint the truth...
and i guess it aint me to accept being stood up... or a boy not honoring our relationship... or our relationship being hidden from someones parents... if i want a sex buddie they aint hard to find...
i shoulda kept it at that...
So my integrity is out... i made it a bad breakup ... it isnt what i was committed too... OHHHWELL