Ten things

So my last couple of days have been a bit of a rollercoaster... i didnt have the three days off.. I worked fri open.. and i got to see a lot of Chris.. which has been nice... Today i walked my round.. and Paula invited me around and i had dinner with their family.. which was awesome.. i havent seen them in like a yr.. so it was a real suprise and pleasure... I am still sick and i think im getting worse.. which sucks.. but maybe i need to look after myself more.. Peter came over the other day looking for chloromon with Zac... that was exciting....
So a couple of months ago Tom put ten things he wanted to say to pple but he didnt on his website.. so i thought id copy and do it also....

1. I forgot it was a game... "Dont play with a player or youll get played"... fair bump... play on....

2. I cant explain why i cant connect with you... i dont even want too... I like you but im not interested in knowing you any better than i do... im sorry cause i know your trying.. and i know you care.. but i just dont... and i cant explain why...

3. Life is short... enjoy it.. cause it will be gone before you have the chance to have your dreams come true... or you will be too old to enjoy it... i ache for the amount of joy you miss out on.. but only you can bring yourself joy... and i cant create it for you....

4. You mean so much to me .. and ive come so close to you over the last couple of yrs... I thank you for your constant love.. your undying love.. your stand.. the way you always are looking at it from my point of view... You really are a precious gem in my life that i couldnt replace if you left.. and i want you to know.. that altho you arent in perth.. these moments are worth their weight in gold to me.. thankyou for trusting me.. thankyou for your friendship

5. I always resist talking to you... i want you to know that means nothing about you.. You really are someone i love and trust.. and im sure i resist that the most... All i want you to know is ... you make the biggest difference when i talk to you .. and i do trust you with all my heart...

6. I'm confused... I love what we have.. it is precious... i mean that in a way i cant even explain to you ever... and i never wanna lose that.. i know you know that.. im clear.. but I need you to know i dont feel this way about anyone...

Maybe ill do the last 4 on contemplation.... hahah so stay tuned and ill update tomorrow or tues.. prolly tues cause im sooo tired. and have sooo much to do tomorrow..........arrhhh.. lol...........:)

In other news.. i didnt get the house.. someone bought is before i had the chance to organise finance.. on a bright note i coulda bought it.. and the next week is gonna be real busy again... nasty.... cause we got made for you!!! which will be DA BOMB>>>> and a pain in the bottom...
Ohh and next week lisa is in Perth... and so is Dan.. welcome back ot the both of you.. i look forward to seeing you both... so itll be a big... week.. I need to get over this cough...:)