Resistance

Dear Tim,

IT s been over a yr and the effect of our relationship is still in full force... maybe more so now in the way it is subconsious and im in a relationship. I find myself hating you more and then hating myself cause i know i wouldnt have done the whole thing any other way even knowing what i do now... and they do say love is blind. Im gonna try not to let what happened between us kill this... or kill my future relationships... but it is so damn hard to trust pple when you know the only person youve ever loved like i loved you lied like the devil to me... and i guess in that sense what happened between your parents.. or whatever had you not trust pple is like a disease that ive caught.... and i can either foster it with love and spread it.. or kill it off knowing that the opportunity to catch that disease im sure will come again...

I will find a way to kill it.

Im sure that is all i want to say to you right now...
Love Ang