Furious

Well i am furious... yesterday i worked a school holiday shift.. and i had heaps to do... and it was busy... most of what i had to do was on the computer.. and Andrew came in and did rosters... now Andrew is sick as most of you know.. and was already in a bad mood... so he came in ... and was just in an arsehole of a mood you know? and then came outin the middle of lunch rush... just as i was getting organised and blasted me for being in the wrong part of the production line.. his exact words are.... I HATE IT THAT NONE OF MY MANAGERS WILL DO THEIR JOB... so here i am working my little arse off and he says that.. anyways it was a hard shift.. i didnt drink a bottle of water OR eat since 8 till three cause it was that busy... i only JUST managed to get the stock areas done ... so Andrew goes ahead and blasts Tash so i have to work harder at about 1430 with no warning ... or hey Ang can you run shift.. we are gonna talk about something.. NOTHING... just pulls her off the floor.. and MAKES HER CRY... THEN HE STORMS OUT Without a goodbye or nothing and he wonders why the crew hate working with him and wanna quit...?/? so i stayed to 1530... but to be honest from 1500 to 1530 i ate... and got little stuff done then went straight home and too landmark...
When i get their JO comes in... now what you need to know about Jo is she decided she wanted to be a group leader.. and to get involved in landmark.. i never MADE her... and she is upset about her gf... fair enough so she is swearing and shit in landmark which in an inclosed office is really not ok.. and i go lets go talk outside... now i care about Kat... and JO and i dont want them to break up and here is JO saying all sorts of SHIT... and i try and make her see reason.. and she is like i just wanna go get FUCKED up... which as we all know helps situations like these... so as i am talking to her Poacher calls.. and jo is like.. maybe ill just go hang out with Poacher... we can go to the strippers together.. and blah blah.. and he is the same.. so i give the phone to her and walk back into landmark cause i got SOOO much to do with my course off track... and i dont need this shit.. i need to get my stuff done cause my life just feels like i have loads and loads to do... and already i want to cry... and then she comes in and hands me the phone.. and then Poacher is like.. i wont go i dont like you being upset... and then i feel bad cause i know JO was just trying to upset me anyways... so it aint poachers fault... and i cant help but feel very hurt that someone who alreadys knows im upset about it is trying to make it worse... THEN... i get this message from Andrew...which i deleted silly enough.. grr cause i wanted to write it up here... but basically telling me he is furious... and that i left a shitty shift for Amy AND that what was i playing at.??? and at this stage im ready to blow and then i start crying.. like at that moment.. life is fucked... so i go to the toilets and try to compose how pissed i am... so i think.. ill call Sean and be in communication.. so i call Sean at find out i missed our coaching call which i thought was at 630 so that fucks everything.. and THEN>>>> in the middle of myself crying on the phone to Sean trying to compose myself JO WALKS OUT>>> NASTELY>>> IM NOT GOING TO THE SEMINAR>>>> fucken bitch... im so angry.. so i try to get the paperwork i got to landmark early to do done.. in ten mins.. which i just cant think... i go into the seminar and i truly cannot thing straight... i ring Amy and she isnt upset.. so all is good between myself and Amy and i tried to call JO but the conversations are going nowhere.... and I tried to call Andrew but he had turned his phone off being the completey BRAVE human being he is... I have to go... cause my heat treat is in freezer lock... and i have a shift to run... but you should know i got a message from JO at 1000 saying she loves me...
maybe she does...
maybe it doesnt matter... cause do you fuck over pple you love? I dont want to be here.. I hate my job.. i hate how hard everything is.. i hate how pple can just fuck you over with no care for the consequence...especially when ive told them that the conversation hurts. i hate how no matter how hard i try i cant keep my damn word cause pple WANT to much of me.. actually there isnt much i dont hate right now...