What I Want

What i want....

First of all to travel... i want to go soon.. once my debt is paid off...
Secound of all... I dont want to live my whole life stressed... i want to spend it with my friends and family.. I love the pple in my life and want to spend time with them...
Thirdly... i want to be spontaneous again... remember those random walks and things we all did which i dont have time for anymore.. well I want that.,..
Fourthly i want to be fit.. or fitter.... i like that ive lost weight and id like to lose more... not too much.. but a little...
I want to have time to create in my life.. like paint again.. random stuff again.. i feel like ive lost who am by being busy all the time...

my life seems to be sleep and work and stress. and then getting drunk to forget.. IM NOT that type of person.. so from here on it.. im gonna create.....
oh and im missing you LIZ,,,,
ANd im sorry Adam.. i do want to hang out... i really do.. im not just avoiding you...:S My life does really seem to be always doing something and being somewhere and being responsible i cant do everything i want to do....