Tired

I just want to say im shit scared of tomorrow night being dissapointing.. or even worse.. being awesome and then things not being that all the time...
I love meeting new pple and then hate the dissapointment..
Or i hate that you can become friends with someone and be amazed by them and then it leaves ya..
but at the same time i want it to happen...
ahhh.. anyways... im sooooo tired and i cant wait to sleep so off to sleep i go..