COSTS

there is always a cost.....
of some description...
and it isnt something i usually consider when i go out to do something. i consider it more than some... and certainly less than others.

Sometimes the costs of things are hidden. Like your not aware of them till they bite you on the arse....
and sometimes it is noble to willingly overlook at the cost...

so what was the cost of myself doing LF....
$480
three days of my life
and the benefits are still three yrs later present and there

what about being a supervisor...
about $300 in phonecalls a month... average....
one full weekend and at least one night a week and 8 hrs reading your file every two months... 1hr a week in calls
that doesnt include the food when your on course.. or just around the centre a lot. petrol parking. it doesnt include the time or hrs i need to change around my sleeping pattern. it doesnt include the friends and family i dont get to see... or can only just call.. it doesnt include the hrs i dont walk my pets or clean my house,.
It isnt viable....
not for me.. it just isnt viable.. how do i tell them that.
more importantly ...
why do i feel they wouldnt listen./? Am i racketing...???
i wonder.....
am i going down the same path i did last time... as im getting older i have less patience... when pple screw me over i just then dont have time for them. i find it harder to forgive... harder even to forget. i know there are some friends who i will never be as close too.. due to stuff they said.. or did... i dont know.. it annoys me... i need to deal with it tho. i need to deal with it now...